Posts Tagged ‘daily thought’
On struggle…
We’re told to seek forgiveness from God for our own shortcomings.
We’re told God only gives us as much as we can handle.
What comfort is it to a 6-yr old child, used for sex, to be told God wouldn’t let it happen unless she could handle it?
When will God ask for our forgiveness?
To forgive you, #3.
What would it take to forgive you?
—To the one who tried to ask.—
Did you really think after two decades it would be enough to offer me $100 to buy my love? One Christmas in all those years would really be enough to make it up to me? The years you missed with me are worth far more than that. Had I accepted, you would’ve gotten a bargain. You, however are not worth a fraction of your offer. No, I won’t even consider accepting.
To forgive you, #2.
What would it take to forgive you?
—To the one who almost asked.—
You came to the door today, I wasn’t supposed to be here, you were expecting someone else to answer. A moment of panic for us both. No words said, and eye contact narrowly avoided as you handed the small box of my belongings to me. Behind the closed door, through a part in the window curtain, I watched you get into your car. You sat there looking back at the house and for a second I thought you might work up the nerve to turn around and come back to my door. I could see the struggle in your face as you made the decision to turn on your car and drive away.
To forgive you, #1.
What would it take to forgive you?
—To the one who never asked.—
If you showed up at my door today, unannounced, after nearly ten years of absence, would I let you in? I willingly admit I still love you. When you disappeared on me, I thought I would never get over it, never get over you. I am over you, yet I still miss the way you made me feel. If you could promise to make me feel that way again, even if for a small moment, I would let you in. But would that be enough to forgive you for the way you make me feel in your absence?
Waking up.
I’ve been asleep for years. I’ve been afraid to embrace life, friendships, lovers, etc… Someone woke me up.
I’ve been asleep for years. I haven’t been moving. Life is moving all around me, the sounds and visions make it through to my subconscious but I do not participate. I am breathing, my heart is beating but my eyes are closed. I am aware.
I’ve been afraid to embrace life, friendships, lovers, etc… I am aware. People surround me and I call many by titles such as friend and lover. I do not embrace these titles or participate or believe or reciprocate. I know I need to embrace, but I do not trust.
Someone woke me up. One person, one moment, my eye lids lifted. I saw with my eyes, I saw with my heart. I saw, for the first time, the visions and sounds that were available only to my subconscious and I began to participate. I began to embrace, believe and trust. I began to move.
Someone woke me up. It began with “Please trust me.” It began when fear ended.
